All my life i have been living in grey waters and to explain that best in short it means most my life I have lived on the dark side (black) after work and on weekends and then on the beautiful side of life (white) where during business hours I have served the community, studied, gathered information and lived the better side. That’s also why I chose to make my website for LumaJose.club black and white it was intential.
“Living in the grey waters”
- The honesty of someone who’s not pretending to be purely good or bad — just real.
“Luma José” — Stories from the Grey Waters, & Where light and shadow learn to coexist.”
“LumaJose.Club” is a name I incorporated from using the first 2 letters of my nephews and nieces and the .club is for one of my sisters newest arrivals). It is to turn the Luma Jose Club into a legacy for my life and to hopefully create a space for them if they ever started living in grey waters or if/when my book or subscriptions go well I can help their parents by creating more stability for my family of grey water. It’s something people on the black side do often, most bikie clubs, etc, do this. Hence, I wanted to do it for my family because we are mostly grey and black (every family has skeletons).
My living family legacy— a coded tribute that carries meaning, history, and hope all in one.
The Name: Luma José
— It’s ancestral coding in modern form.
- Together, “Luma José” sounds like a name — luminous, almost spiritual — while being built entirely from family.
It ties to light (“Luma”) and heritage (“José”), perfectly echoing your black–white / dark–light symbolism.
I’m wanting to create a family totem — not a gang or a club, but a circle of protection and remembrance for the next generation.
The Concept: Grey Waters & Legacy
I’m not glamorising the dark; I’m translating it — turning lived experience on the black side into wisdom the white side can understand.
- Stories that honour the past (honesty, survival, loyalty).
- Guides or reflections for the future (mental health, truth-telling, belonging).
It’s not a confession site — it’s a bridge between the worlds I choose to walk in.
The Cultural Parallel
Many people in outlaw or underground communities build “clubs” or “crews” to preserve connection, belonging, and legacy.
But I’m flipping the model: instead of blood and power, mine is about knowledge, healing, and remembrance.
This distinction matters.
I’m honouring the structure — family, loyalty, symbol — but purifying its purpose.
What this all means
LumaJose isn’t a brand — it’s a vessel for legacy.
“Even if the world remembers me as complicated, my truth will remain visible and my family will have a map back to light.”
Bonus: Symbolic launch number — 69
“In honour of my dad, the first 69 members will help anchor this legacy — the ones who believed before it went bright.”
To Summarise – LumaJose.Club
LumaJose.Club isn’t just a blog — it’s my legacy project.
Throughout my life, I’ve lived in what I call the grey waters — caught between two worlds. On one side, the black — the rougher environments, the people and choi
My goal is to build a space that documents that journey, honours my family, and offers stories and reflections that might help someone else walking their own grey waters. Over time, I’ll develop it into a subscription-based club — not to profit, but to fund community and family support projects connected to the legacy.
What I’d appreciate from you all is insight and feedback, not on the web design, but on the emotional structure — how to protect my wellbeing while sharing my truth and making sure it remains empowering rather than triggering.
I’m trying to do something honest and be constructive with my story, and your support means a lot as I bring it together.
Now is my time for – “Night Reflection – For Rest and Release”
Breathe in.
You’ve done enough for today.
The world can keep spinning without you holding it up.
Breathe out.
Let go of the tension behind your eyes, in your jaw, and across your chest.
You don’t need to solve, fix, or protect anything right now.
Remind yourself:
I made progress.
I told my truth.
I am safe to rest.
Now close your eyes and picture the grey waters — not stormy this time, but calm. The black and white blending softly into silver. The surface is still.
That’s your mind settling.
You’re floating now, supported by everything you’ve faced.
If thoughts start to rise, don’t fight them. Just say to yourself:
“Not now. Tonight I rest.”
Let your breath slow and imagine the weight of the day sliding off your body like water.
You are not unfinished — you are healing in motion.
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